I am toying with an idea. What if I knew I was going to die? I recently read the book Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. Morrie really faced death with such strength and courage. He had reached a certain state of enlightenment I guess. But I who have so much less life experience, how would I face it? Not that I have some life threatening disease.

Its far from death really, but yet similar in a way. It will not be permanent but I will be suddenly pulled away from my world next month for quite a while.
And I cant help but wonder.

How will the world I know go on before me? Will the world even notice my abscence? And how will my loved ones cope with it?

I suddenly realise that this seperation might not only be my suffering. Theres so much I want to do before this.

In short, I just want to tell them I really love them. That I forgive them for everything wrong they have done, and am thankful for everything good they have done.

And that I really really love my family, though its the thing I show the least.