And how much has changed. Oblivion was all I felt one year ago, not knowing the full extent of what the next two years held for me. All I knew was I had to have all the fun I could, before I took that boat ride. And now look at me, being able to drive a powerful machine, perhaps something I should be proud of, but still unsatisfied with life. How quickly it has all happened, how one moment I was free from everything, only to step into the hands of another captor, now living from day to day with a perpetual hole in me, just black and blank, hollow and empty.

Halfway through I guess, but just as bad, till I am finally out. I guess to a certain extent, life does not have to be this way. Maybe if I even attempt to embrace abit of the life I am going through now, it could be quite exciting, and maybe perhaps happier. But somehow I have never been so stubborn to something before. I somehow reject everything related to the organisation.

Then there is all the changes. Perhaps I have lost faith. Somehow everything is just shrouded in a negativity.

NEGATIVITY

Thats it. I need to cancel out the negativity in my life. Welcome positivity. I did not feel a need for a new year resoloution before, but eleven months is too long to waste away. Hence my new year resoluttion is positivity. Everything is going to be better from now on. Every experience a one to look forward to. Change can be good as well. For I want to be happier, and 2009 is the year.

Geez, this totally screws up my writing style for this blog. Welcome 2009. =)